Kilala mo ba ang sarili mo?

Ako? simpleng tao lang (simple nga ba?). Gaya ng ibang teenager, mahilig akong sumubok ng mga bagay na bago sa paningin ko. Yun bang magiging "in" ka pag ginawa mo. Hindi naman ako mahirap pakisamahan. As a matter of fact friendly talaga ko at approachable sa mga taong karapat dapat pansinin. Hahaha. Minsan, madalas pala e suplada ako. Lalo na pag 'di ko type yung attitude ng tao. Marami din nagsasabi na mataray ako. San naman nila napulot yung idea na yun, e lahat lang naman ng babangga sakin e nakakatikim ng salita. Ang bait ko nga e. Hahaha again. Pero seriously, ako yung tao na very expressive. Yung kapag may dinaramdam, mahahalata mo agad. Magaling din ako mag hide ng feelings pero madalas pinapakita ko na lang talaga kung ano yung tunay kong nararamdaman. Share ko lang sainyo yung sinulat ko dati, walang date e pero nakita ko lang kanina na nakasulat sa mga lumang notebooks ko nung highschool. Siguro nagse-senti ako nung mga panahon na naisulat ko 'to.

"I'm scared of doing things imperfectly. Not because of what people may think about me, butbecause of what I could think about myself. Sometimes, I really don't know what kind of girl I'am. People often misunderstand me. And i do misunderstand myself too. My greatest fear is to be cheated by someone. I'm tired of being involved on complicated situations. I'm confused about what I really want to be, scared of trying new things and just see myself fail after that. I know that it's better to be trying than to do nothing at all. But i don't know, because me myself is my contradiction. Whenever I start deciding for certain things, there's just something in me that disapproves. And it just makes me confused, and probably ending up with nothing. I never thought that teenage life would be this hard. I miss being just a kid. I miss having no responsibilities. I wish i could turn back time, those times that with just one lollipop i'd be able to stop myself from crying. Because now, even a dozen of lollipops won't do so. 'Cause now when we got hurt, the pains lingers on our minds. It stays in our memory."

at jan nag tatapos ang aking maikling seremonya. Ewan ko nga ba kung ano ang naiisip ko nung mga panahon na yan. Parang broken hearted yata ako jan. Hahaha. Ang tao nga naman 'no? Parang mas madali para sa atin na sa sulat ibuhos yung mga tinatago nating damdamin. Siguro dahil takot tayo sa pwedeng sabihin satin ng kung sinu man na pag sabihan natin ng mga ito. Hindi nga naman sasagot yung papel o ballpen at pagsasabihan ka ng "ang tanga tanga mo naman kasi". Lalong hindi ka mahihiya o matatakot sa sarili mo na aminin kung ano yung totoo mong nararmdaman.